Getting On With Life...

Leave it to me to jump right into personal stuff on my 2nd post! I guess it's about writing what's on your mind though, right?

Some might not appreciate the picture this time...not very dignified, some might say. I disagree though. I think pregnancy is beautiful, and I loved being pregnant. I especially loved it this last time around knowing that it would be my last time being "in the family way."

We won't be having any more children. Four is enough for us...I feel at my wits end most days as it is! We love babies and kids around here, and it's tempting to have a whole boat-load of 'em. Heck, we're already way past the point of ever having a tidy house again anyway! But we decided that we need to stop if we're going to do a good job by the kids we've already been blessed with. We want to be really...annoyingly, even...involved in our kids' lives. We just can't do that if we have more. This all makes perfect logical sense to me.

So why couldn't I stop crying when I knew our decision was final? I just kept thinking "It went too fast!", and "I'm never going to be pregnant again!", and "I'm never going to have another baby with this wonderful man!" It seemed that I looked forward to pregnancy and new babies my whole life, and suddenly it was over!

But then I look at my amazing children. They are more than pregnancies and new babies. They are people. How can I think for a minute that it's over? It's just begining! I have the rest of my life (Please, Lord) to enjoy these amazing children.

And to be honest, it feels really good to be "done" these days. I know who we need to save for college for. I know how many bedrooms we'll need. I know that we can all fit into a vehicle together. I know that I can start selling/throwing away/giving away my baby and maternity clothes. I know how many stockings are going to be hung on our mantle each year. And it feels really good...really peaceful...really settled to know all of that.

So here's to selling the play-saucer! Here's to Getting On With Life...