Seeking My Rock

(cross posted at Moms In The Right)

Well, here I am again this week for STLS...and once again, for the third week in a row, I'm not writing what I'd planned.  I love it when God speaks to my heart and gives me direction...but I sure wish he'd send me a memo in advance or something so I can stop changing my mind at the last minute.  Despite my plans, the Lord determines my steps.  And it's a good thing, or you'd be stuck with another enlightening and uplifting post about Hell this week!  Oh, come on.  I know you were looking forward to it ;)  

This whole week hasn't quite been what I'd planned.  I've been dealing with some painful personal struggles that have had me crying rivers.  I'm thankful that his grace is made perfect in my weaknesses...his grace has plenty of opportunity to show itself though my weakness lately!  Although I'd love for this thorn of mine to be removed, the gentle (yet still painful) answer from my Lord has been much like the one Paul got.  I'm not sure if it's a "not now" or a flat-out "no".  Either way, I'll just hang tight and know that I'm his.  He's in control of me and my life.  He's in control of my suffering.  He's in control of my dreams and my future.

Our new President isn't helping matters any either (I know...where did that come from?).  The fact is that my initial excitement and hope of something new and fresh...well, those warm and fuzzy feelings were short lived.  His first few days in office have been productive, to be sure.  He signed executive orders to use my tax dollars toward abortions, which both breaks my heart and makes me feel furious (At what point are we giving to Caesar what belongs to Caesar, and at what point are we enabling evil?  Wanna move to Canada anyone?).  And if that wasn't bad enough, he's closed Guantanamo Bay...hmmm, what to do with all these suspected terrorists?  No one really seems to know, but at least our international reputation looks "nicer".  Lovely.  I'd rather the whole word see us as tough SOBs that they know they'd better not mess with.  

I fear that our new president's legacy is going to be a fresh wave of attacks.  But don't worry.  I'm sure there will be a way to blame Bush for whatever bad happens.

We can change.  Yes we can.  But I don't have to like it.  And judging by the increase in gun sales around the country, I'm not the only one who's anxious.

I don't mean to get wrapped up in a political discussion.  I don't really even know what I'm talking about - certainly no political expertise here.  Maybe in the big picture, this all still looks rosy and hopeful and optimistic.  Maybe I'm just not bright enough to see it.  Please?  I hope that's what it is.  I've never wanted to be stupid so badly in my life.  Please...someone tell me that I just don't fully understand.

My point...my point is about the state of my crazy brain this week.  We have crying.  We have depression.  We have anger.  We have overwhelming frustration.  We have keep-me-up-at-night anxiety.  And apparently, we have a problem using pronouns properly.

But do you know what?  Amidst all this change and turmoil and anxiety that "we" have lately, there's something that has never changed...something that will never change.  Some-ONE to be more specific.  It's comforting to know that despite whatever I have going on, He never changes.  His love for me never changes.  Nothing can snatch me from His capable hands.  Not even my worry or doubt or fear.  

Even if the mountains literally fall down around me, the true Rock of my life and future will remain solidly in place.

So that's what I'm going to try and focus on this coming week.  That, and praying for wisdom and courage for our new President to make good choices...and a humble heart in seeking the Lord while he's our President (not to say that his heart's in the wrong place, I can't know...but some prayers from little old me can't hurt).

Along those lines, this song has been such a blessing to me lately.  Enjoy:

If you'd like to share the ways that the Lord has worked in your life this week, please write a post about it on your blog and link up:

Seek The Lord Sunday Participants

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