There's No Good Title For This Random-Thought Post
>> Monday, January 26, 2009 –
Life and Family,
Parenting,
Photography
Had a little mini-session this weekend with my friend's baby boy. How much cuter could he be?! I went on a search these past couple of months for cute hats. I'll tell ya, nothing seems to perk up a photo quite like a cute little knit hat! Thank you ebay and Gymboree :)
In other news...I'm sane again. Thanks for all of your kind encouragement during these past weeks while I slowly lost my mind. As much as I'd like to be healthy without the meds, I'm just not. I'm back on my regular dose now, and the clouds have lifted. The world literally looks brighter...maybe it's because my eyes are up instead of down while I mumble to myself about all my gloomy thoughts. I'm sure it's been a joy to live with me lately. I'm married to the best man in the world.
Not much on the agenda today. At the moment, I'm alternating between writing this post and watching my little guy remove a sticker from a shoe box, play with it on his fingers, and then put it back on the box....repeat 700 times and you have the exiting day of a 16 month old.
I love simple days that don't have a long to do list. Sure, I'd like to get some laundry and dishes done. Maybe I'll even scrub a floor. But I don't HAVE to be anywhere. And an added bonus is that I showered right before bed last night. My hair is sticking up in every which direction, but I'm clean...so a shower isn't even really a requirement.
Oh, who am I kidding. A shower is a requirement.
What happened to my plans of stay at home mommyhood? A spotless house, well-rounded kids who had a mommy who was involved in every single activity plus PTA president, freshly baked cookies every other day, book reading, leaf rubbing, nature hunts, no TV, daily exercise....you know....all the stuff that a mommy to be thinks will fill her days once her little bundle arrives.
I guess that's what happened to my plans...the bundles...they arrived! They cry. They poop. They teethe. They have their own agenda, and it usually includes stuff like stomping feet, slamming doors, playing video games, and telling me how much smarter they are than me. So much for nature hikes and leaf rubbing sessions while they ooggle their eyes at me in awe and adoration :)
That's okay. They're kids, not robots. I really wouldn't have it any other way. Most of the time.
Are you a new mom to be reading this? Ignore me. Spend a few more months in your baby bliss bubble. It really is sweet and fun and wonderful. Hey, I did it four times and I'd do it four more times if I could without losing my mind, all my money, and probably my husband!
Have a great day, my sweet bloggy buddies. I know I'm gonna...
That's a super cute pic of little B!
I'm glad you've found balance and peace. Your health is important to your family and friends!
Jen
hi friend! glad the clouds are lifted! I'd really like to chat with ya more, I need to jot an email your way. where's my time?
cute baby!
What a cute baby! I totally agree. I never thought that staying at home and taking care of the family can take so much of my time. And I thought all along I still have tons of time to spare. But it is just so rewarding, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Wish you all the best!
Yes, when I had given notice that I was leaving my job (4 years ago) to be a full time SAHM, I remember telling my coworkers how I would be able to work out every day, play with my baby, cook delicious healthy meals for my husband, keep my house clean, etc. One of my very nice coworkers smiled and said "let me know how that works out for you." I think of that conversation almost every day now - and smile.
I think you hit the nail on the head when you said that the kids have their own agendas. Our time is no longer our own. But, they are growing up fast, and I'm lowering my housekeeping expectations, and all is working out fine. And like you, I wouldn't have it any other way.