The Beating of This Little Boy's Heart

Don't have the time or energy or will to get into deep details, thoughts or philosophy today.  Just want to get this thing documented so that I can write again soon (hopefully) to say "Never mind!  No big deal!  Nothing's wrong! "

We had a strange day with Ben yesterday - he had 3 separate occasion where his lips were blue.  I mean BLUE.  Blue like he'd just snuck a blue lollipop.  Only he didn't eat anything blue - he was just running around a little.

Put this new development together with his occasional dizzy spells, some congenital heart defects in the family, and one time when Ben came down from his room complaining of feeling like he just got "shot with electricity in my heart"...and you have one set of very nervous parents.

Took him to the doc today.  So far, everything looks normal.  Getting more tests scheduled, and waiting on results from the ones we already did.

He's been a good sport - was a brave little trooper even through the blood draw, and he laughed hysterically when he was eating his cotton candy flavored ice cream cone I'd bribed him with.  He smeared it on his lips and said "Hey Mom, looooook, NOW my lips are blue!"

I had a moment where I didn't know if I should laugh with him, scream "That's not funny!", or just cry.

What a little punk :-)

It's funny how even the slightest hint of this little boy's heart not beating properly...it makes my heart do it's own backflip.  Sometimes I think loving like this is more a curse than a blessing.